Faerie moon. I'm sorry to hear that you experience this but it's scary how similar my experiences are. I have not had an "explosion" as such but instead turn on myself. I think because in my head no one cares anyway they just think I'm being difficult.

LauraBeth this woman's voice was distinct from my inner dialogue/jumble of random thoughts, it felt like I actually heard it with my ears. & I often have songs looping amongst that dialoge.