Thank you everyone for your replies. I haven't read everything or replied because I am to emotional yet. As I have read some of your replies and I am typing this I am letting the tears slide down my cheeks. I can't read all right now but I will come back and reply to each of you. I am not sure if they is making sense to you...I hope it does.

Thank you all.....I will be back to reply when I am less emotional.....
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