It hurts and it never stops. Sometimes it hurts less. Or I forget about it. But it hurts. I can't stand being myself. I hate myself. I really really just want someone to tell me the truth that I am an annoying parrot and a piece of crap that needs to get its **** together and stop making excuses for itself.

I am a useless uncaring and awful human. No wonder I have a gift of repelling people. Just run away far far away and don't come near me otherwise you will regret it. Don't bother talking to me. Don't hurt me. I won't hurt you. I'll just sit here. Hurting.