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Old Sep 17, 2015, 07:13 AM
Jeffrouk Jeffrouk is offline
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Originally Posted by the red queen View Post
I was abandoned by both my parents my mom emotionally and physically and my dad physically was absent. I suffered all types of abuse, neglect, and I was unsafe with her and her boyfriend. I tried to protect my younger sister and brother but was unable to protect either of us. I still suffer today with PTSD from the abuse and treatment and its rather overwhelming. I feel so abandoned, unloved and rejected by them and now every relationship I'm in I feel so sad and hurt. I miss the love I never had and I'm always chasing it only to get the same results its a dark path with no direction. I feel swelled up with hurt and anger to no end.
I understand your pain so much red queen, it truly is PTSD, when reopened or triggered to its full it truly is overwhelming, i can no longer seem to handle the prospect of a relationship, its just to scary, and when it doesnt work out the feeling of hurt, betrayel and isolation and horrendous... Im hoping if I truly grieve this time, I may find some resolution.... but I know this will always be a part of me.
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