Everyone I've ever been IP with who was getting ECT thought it wasn't working and didn't believe everyone around them it was working and then you'll see a little tiny change but it won't last so you'll think it's not real but then they'll keep happening and you'll feel better. I've seen this with several people. So don't give up on it yet.

I found a great brochure that happens to actually be from my hospital on ECT so I'll give her that if I need to. Somewhere I had another more detailed handout thing online but I don't know if I can find it again.

But first I have to find out if I even need to bother. I keep thinking I'm getting myself worked up and that this is the answer and my dr is going to have some easy answer when I see her that makes this look like I was ready for something huge and needed something tiny.

I just need some treatment, any treatment. My AD is a patch and I feel like it's not even worth changing it anymore. I know that it is but it is really hard to do that every day when it feels like it's not helping. Plus I forget if I done it and need to put a notebook in the bathroom to check it off so I don't change it twice in a day.