If T says she cannot help you, she's not the right T for you. There is always *something* one can do to improve one's quality of life.

You mention a few issues but I have to say I am not sure 'real'/genuine friends look for flash or fabulousness. Real, lasting, relationships are more than just skin-deep. Also, attractiveness is a rather subjective concept. So I wouldn't write yourself off..

I'm also somewhat confused as you stated you were asexual then that you were gay? Doesn't matter anyway but it seems you aren't meeting people who resonate with you or are attuned to you. As they say, there is always hope. It's a matter of you not giving up on yourself, keep trying and put yourself out there (i.e. expand your circles of acquaintanceship, or interests etc).