<font color="#000088">I'm doing the best I can. I'm trying to just ignore my problems so I can help others with thiers. But with these urges getting so much stronger and with no friends here(where I live) to talk to,I'm pretty much fighting this alone.I've told my Therapist,and my PDoc,and they just say the same thing, if it gets to bad then you can always call the crisis line, or they can admit me to the hospital I guess to protect me from me. But the crisis line in the past hasn't taken me seriously, they have actually hung up on me. I told them once that my brother had been in a high speed chase in my car, and the police were watching my motel room, waiting to catch him returning my car, and they thought that I was on drugs. I told them I felt like jumping out the window, because my brother was out there in the cold, hiding, and in danger,and the cops were watching me! So I wanted to give them something to see,and they just hung up on me. I really was upset, and just a few days later when I arranged a safe way to get my car back, without my brother being caught. I ended up in the ER from an overdose,over the whole situation,and the stress knowing that even the crisis line could care less what I did to myself! I won't call them anymore, for anything!</font>