pachyderm...... i know we're not made of steel. i know i had no way of knowing what would happen on that boat ride. the fact that i automatically trusted that neighbor just shows that i never had a reason not to trust before. but even now as an adult, even knowing in my heart that it wasnt my fault, i still feel stupid sometimes for not knowing better, and i still feel like a wuss for not having done more to try and get justice for myself. i know its not rational to feel that way, and it makes me feel pathetic, but i don't know how to let it go.