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Well, I think as a child I would do things to bring pain but I don't recall that in great detail.
However, when I was in 7th or 8th grade I started self harming. I had read a book about cutting and for some reason all the stuff I read in the book hit home. I figured since I was struggling so much I would give it a try. I couldn't cut myself because I didn't have the tools but I did something else that enabled me to bleed a little and it felt amazing? I don't know if that's the right word but I got so much relief from it and all the emotions I was having just kind of disappeared for a while. It calmed me down greatly and I was able to stop crying. Sometimes I wish I had never read that book because then I might not have gone down that path.
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