Sona

Welcome to PC! I can relate a lot to what you are saying here. And Clyde asks some good questions regarding your possible depression.

Here is my take on what you are going through with your friends. I think you are growing up...maturing and realizing that their ways are not good for you anymore. You are wanting to take responsibility for your life. Sometimes we do grow out of our friendships....moving on to different directions. And thats not a bad thing.

As you probably already know, alcohol is a depressant. If you are depressed and you are adding alcohol to the mix, then it's not helping your mental state anymore. And I think it's great you are concerned about becoming an alcoholic. With that, you can then turn concern into action and help yourself!!

I'm sorry you are going through some difficult times now. But IMHO, you are asking just the right questions and hopefully will find the right answers to help yourself move on into a happier lifestyle (not to mention a safer lifestyle!).

Keep posting here, we have a forum for Alcohol and Substance abuse along with Depression. There are a lot of folks who have been in your situation before and can lend an ear and some wonderful support.

I wish you well along your journey! Take good care of YOU, you deserve it!

Hugsss
sabby