I like what you said here radioflyer: </font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
Each and everyone of us, that visit PC has the opportunity to achieve the requirements to go to the private forum. No one is excluded. Maybe reaching those goals would be "healthier", than having all these negative feelings..We are all worthy.. Maybe we should "prove it".. instead of feeling defeated or left out.....

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> .... that is what I've struggled with doing... .... not very successful though..... ..... grew up "on the outside looking in" and repeated this in my adult relationships-- it triggers me so much to feel I don't "rate" somewhere that I come to for support. ... I think knowing that forum exists even keeps me from posting as much as I would-- coz those "old recordings" say to me -- "See even here you're not good enough-- you're such a loser-- you can't even totally belong in a support forum" .... I know it's my background and my struggle-- just wish it didn't have to be a part of a support site ....*sigh*...... I have tried so so hard to be supportive to others here.... but somehow-- it's not what I say-- it's how much I post...

mandy