Yes, I do understand. It must be very scary for you, all the more reason to go see a GP as soon as possible. Hopefully there can be a way in which to help you out and make you feel better.

Like Sabau mentioned, it is also a good thing to check out the posts on other parts of this "website" as well. It is important to know that there are others (and there really are!) who have had basically the same struggles and issues as you--it helps you feel more like everyone else and helps you to realize you are still on some firm foundation.

Welcome here, and continue to talk in any forum you feel free to do so in. We are all here to be helped and help each other, so welcome!