I'm wondering. I was having the thought after our last meeting - and it took a while before I was able to have the thought - that maybe I hadn't done anything wrong, he did. So why should I feel bad - he knows that I have problems so why should he be angy that my emails were 'nuts'. (I was paniced and said his office was trying to kill me and wanted me dead.) He did admit at the last meeting that sometimes he's a bad psychiatrist and sometimes he's a good psychiatrist. And that I shouldn't make him out to be all good - which I do most of the time. Guess I'm making progress having stirrings of anger towards him.