Yes to all! Im either self-sabotaging - no, wait - there is no "or" to that. I HAVE told my t in the past that i DONT want him to ask me, or i dont want to talk, about my overeating or unhealthy eating, and he has totally respected that.

It took me a long time to examine my eating habits and realize they came from deprivation - my parents poor background. And catholic school "sacrifice" - trying to please the nuns. But you see a fat person and you figure, heck she eats all the time. Well she doesnt eat healthfully all the time. I wasnt eating breakfast. I wasnt eating variety. I wasnt eating hot food. I wasnt eating home made food. I wasnt eating vegetables. I used to buy water! Not food.

Anyway. Honestly, i didnt want my mother to see me skinny. I didnt want her to see me still fat either. But if she had seen me skinny, she would have found a way to ruin it. I wish i had been able to say that years ago. I think t is about doing that. I just cant do it. Or dont do it. Big mouth coward!

Thanks for the input, everyone. I am just in week one of letting him ask me follow up, and i KNOW hes afraid to rock the boat! So am i! I just keep waiting for my mother to come back from the dead and slap me upside the head.