Today has not been a very good day. Saw my T this morning and what we talked about brought up feelings of what a piece of crap I am. Went to work afterwards but it was hard to work because all I could think about I just needed to hurt myself. Cut, cut and more cutting and I made it thru work w/o cutting. But now I am home and what do I do? My T wants to know if I really need her but I just do not want to bother her. Cutting just make me feel more alive and it doesn't hurt anyone else.