For over 1200 sessions, I said or did whatever the F I wanted to do.

Permission or allowing were terms never discussed. But, also, I never got physically violent or aggressive in session.

I can't imagine asking my therapist for permission to do anything. I'm an adult and paid her good $$$. And that $$$$ was not for her to allow me to do anything.

With one major exception. I wanted hugs. She wouldn't give them. I even offered her 1000$ for 1 hug. No deal.