I'm not like this now, but I was in my early years of therapy. It was hell. With one I really liked, I wanted very much to talk, but I just couldn't. After a couple months, I gave up. With the others, it was the same, only I stayed on longer before giving up. I don't know what's different about me or the therapist I see now, but I just go for it. The harder the topic, the more I make myself just say it and get it over with.

I do think a good fit with a therapist helps, but I wouldn't pin it all on that. Some people have a great therapist, but still can't open up. I would say it takes time or a different therapist, but I know you struggle with the idea of going elsewhere. Bottom line: it's torture to not be able to talk (at least, it was for me for many many years).