I've been in therapy several times over my 48 years. I was sexually abused as a child, and first entered therapy when I was in my late 20's.

I can be rather combative in therapy, and have had issues with the fact that my first therapist was into the recovered memory craze of the 1990's (and that's when I saw her). So, I'm very aware of their inadequacies (they are, after all, human).

I left my last therapist because he shared his interest in Narconon and Scientology.

I've considered that I may suffer from post-traumatic stress disorder (from the sexual abuse and seeing the abuse my dad perpetrated towards my mother), BPD and NPD have also been suggested.

But, I'm doing fairly well, as far as I'm concerned. What I want to deal with right now, is the fact that I'm having a hard time making and following through on goals, so money is really starting to be an issue.

I've made and followed through with goals in the past, but it's incredibly hard for me to do so without becoming consumed with them. So, I have a negative reaction to goals. I have this memory of being miserable while I was working on goals

Will it be difficult to find a therapist who will help me work on this issue? I have this feeling that if I get into the office, the therapist will redirect me to whatever he/she thinks is important.