I don't want to live no more
I am stupid
not like you and you
my sister does things I can't do
so many questions in my brain
I don't deserve to live
you don't love me
why do I have to be this stupid?
I'm not smart
if you have aspergers you are no good
give me a knife!
I want to kill myself!
I can't stand it anymore!
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tears kept pouring last night
my little boy filled with fright
ran out in front of cars
thought it would leave no scars
I told him I love him so much
tried to hold him and stroke him with a gentle touch
we talked about the cars and the danger of it all
he said he deserved to get injured and I felt so small
he acted out in horrible ways- yesterday- before this event
the anxiety building up at the zoo- nothing could prevent
it all went pretty fine
until now- when his mind drew the line
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why won't they listen to a family in need?
a little while longer and we will all fall apart at this speed
you talk and you tell them everything
still they leave your heart with nothing but a sting
today I wrote a letter
in crying hope to make life better
the Swedish autism organization
please help us in this unbearable situation!
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I love my son and I try to explain
to have aspergers doesn't mean you're insane
my boy you know so much about so much
about cars, stamps, history, countries and such
aspergers- is to live with a different kind of brain
in an environment with social rules- it causes pain
you are smart my boy- that I know
having aspergers- is often whispering of a high IQ

I will see to it my son... that you get the help you need!