my therapist recommended this.
i have trouble concentrating on the book. ive tried reading regular books and ebooks. its the same. i dont have motivation to read. idk if im reading the wrong stuff. because i cant read philosophy like i used to. i tried reading Go Set A Watchman but it was so flowery i couldnt wrap my head around the first paragraph. idk whats wrong with me. I WANT to take in information but i just cant and ive been talking less too. i hardly post on instagram either anymore or FB or anything.

the only place i talk is here.
its like a chore to talk or to read or anything. i just want to lay in bed and think. i could think all day. i just think about stuff and never do it.

im not lazy i just literally dont have motivation. idk what it is. tiredness and motivation are my greatest problems in this recovery period. idk if im burnt out from life. i had this huge surge of motivation when i started school but now its just fading away.

its a negative symptom i guess. i couldnt be more unhappy than i am right now. its like i just want to get off my meds. thats how unhappy i feel. i dont even study anymore where i was studying for an hour or two before.