I´ve been looking for a new T for many months now, I was terminated. I went to public health care and psychiatry and that has only made things worse. I´ve got the diagnoses depression and anxiety and I also have suicidal thoughts quite frequently.

As the waiting time to see a therapist is long I´ve asked for a councellor to just talk to, not therapy but someone to talk to while I wait to see a therapist.

It took several months before I met with a doctor who conceded to letting me see a councellor and I got an appointment with a psychiatric nurse.

It was the worst appointment I´ve ever had and it made me feel even worse than before. She questioned if I had tried to commit suicide and when I said I haven´t she more or less meant that in that case I hadn´t the right to get to talk to someone.

As I asked for just someone to talk to about how I feel and that it´s very hard for me to wait to see a T, that I feel very mentally ill with depression and anxiety the chat wasn´t supposed to be about diagnosing. I´ve already went through that but the nurse talked about diagnoses anyway and said things like "there´s something that isn´t right with you" and "it´s a feeling I have".

Earlier on there have been discussions whether I might have traits of aspbergers but no complete evalutation has been done. I felt completely mortified by this - she tells me this like she was talking about a movie or whatever and doesn´t seem to care or know how it feel to be told such things.

A diagnoses, that noone before suspected is now thrown at me with when there´s noone to talk to or to process all difficult feelings and sadness that comes with such suspicions.

She didn´t even sat in the chair near me but at her desk, at a distance.

I live by myself and has noone to turn to for comfort. How is it possible to even cope with being treated like this?

Is there someone who shares a similar experience?