My stress won't be reduced until I get another job that pays more money. My stress is coming from lack of money to pay down my debts. I could take my parents out of the equation altogether and my stress would still be very high. They just add to the stress I already have by throwing it in my face that they know I'm sick and broke, but don't care. My problem isn't that my parents aren't huggy or loving. I've accepted that they're cold, uncompassionate people. I know I can't force them to help me more than they already are, but when my health keeps failing due to stress and not having the money to take care of my health, and they know that and could help me, but are choosing not to, that I'm having trouble getting over.

I'm already cutting out everything I can. I never go out, I never go to movies. I stay home almost every weekend. I have a lot of food allergies, so I can't go cheap on food. My prescriptions cost about $200 a month and I can't go any cheaper. I'm allergic to a lot of fillers, so they have to be compounded. I'm doing all I can, but I have a lot of limitations because of my health.

I've made peace with my brother in my mind. My anger isn't towards him. He's a vegetable right now, so there's no point in talking to him. He's a stranger to me. He's never been a brother, so I won't have any regrets when he goes.