I just dropped my mom off so she can go along on vacation with my sister's family to our favorite place in the world (Outer Banks) to help with the kids. If I were well I would have been going but instead I'm home here alone and not even able to watch my mom's dogs who are stuck in a kennel for a week because of this.

It wouldn't be so bad if this weren't the 2nd Outer Banks trip this episode has made me miss. My aunt took everyone there on a memorial trip for my uncle this spring and I had to back out because this episode was raging then too.

I'm just so tired of this. I miss my LIFE.

I want to be me again.