when i can feel them more and/or am dissociating more (it's not a daily thing for me anymore), i definitely feel crazy.

i have also found sometimes when i talk about it more, it happens more...but i think that is because there are not many people i can talk to about it because i still doubt it myself and most people do not believe it. so, of course things would be quieter for me if there aren't people who can be trusted with this information.

i have been trying to figure out how things work for me, but there is zero pattern to it except in the past where they were a lot more active. now it's like all the ones i knew went into hiding for years, and the ones i have felt/heard over the last few years are not any i knew even though some might have similar characteristics as some i did know.

the other issue i have run into is where i used to be able to hear them and talk to them, when i feel one now closer to the surface, i do not hear them at all...it's like they cannot talk or are not able to, i am not sure which.....and i get stuck feeling what they feel and it is so confusing for me because i know it is not 'me/my feeling.'

i have a lot more blending than actual co-conscious with the few i have been aware of over the last few years...except one who never comes to the surface and is just an older female voice i have only heard a few times and a few others who i have no idea what their purpose is....except to harm me..which thankfully is a lot less than it was years ago...but there seem to be a lot with similar 'themes' so to speak yet are not the same.

but to answer your question..yes...it makes me feel crazy....i also question myself a lot because i have no 100% take over of them...i just get stuck between being me and being them (or being in between reality and nowhere) but have no idea who i am when any of it happens...but i am still able to move, type/talk, etc. and just overall end up feeling very...strange....it disrupts my daily functioning when it does happen and then the days after when it lessens, it's like a partial, sometimes full gap in my memory....all i know is i wish things were more coherent with more communication IF i do have parts...and i dunno..some kind of working together would be great at some point...or at least a warning when one of them is closer..