I don't have a diagnosis, either (and it seems unlikely that I'll get one), so I don't know if this is the number one thing or not. I do know that the loss of time every single day is terrible. I feel like I lose a third of my entire life to this thing. As you said, I can't turn back the clock, I can't make different choices, I can't reach out for help sooner or learn better skills earlier in life. It's frustrating and saddening.

Thank you for having the courage to speak up.