I don't go 'more' crazy...I am already there! At least that's what she said.

It doesn't bother most of us anymore because we've accepted that we are multiple. There are a few of us that still deny it, but that can't be helped. We've known for about 32 years, so nothing really is too surprising anymore. We still have new others that make themselves known as we go still.

We definetly were tripping at the beginning of the year, but my meds being out of whack didn't help much. We were coming out of denial and testing the waters, but we knew.

The thing about it, it explains why we did what we did when we did ...life now makes sense....so there was more a sense of relief for us. And there are a bunch of us that really don't care....they're a little rougher around the edges.

"Know thyself"....it's more work then the normal person has to do!

Once we all started working together in co-operation for the greater good of the system, things got better, better then when it was every one for themselves.

We've done a lot of stupid things and jail time till we had a system wide shock of prison time...that learned us. So today, we discuss, vote, consult, support, and work with each other more. We are a family, but like all families, we still have sibling rivalries, quarrels, not fairs...

We still get a renegade or radical that presents, but not as often now that most of us is working together. It's not like clock work, but it works.

Keep in mind that we are the victims here...we are the ones suffering. Beating ourselves up over this is just more self abuse that we can do without.

The abuse maybe over, so it's time to put ourselves back together, or get everyone working together....I found that it's less stressful living that way.

I hope you find your peace with all this. The horror and shock do wear off after acceptance is achieved. I've come to think of this as my normal because it's always been this way for us. I have no clue as to how a normal singleton operates or feels, so how can I miss something that I've never had?

Hang in there...treat yourself and your others well, we all deserve it. We've been put through too much.