So I'm 20 years old and I've been obsessed with my physical and mental health for as long as I can remember. I'm clearly a hypochondriac, always aware of every little sensation in my body, googling symptoms and freaking out over stupid things.

Well last year too much pressure and some unlucky events led to me having panic attacks and obsessive thoughts, thinking I would pass out or just die at any second of my life.

So I realized I needed therapy. My only experience with therapy had been when I was just 5 years old (similar issues, I was extremely afraid of death and germs) and of course I don't remember that much about it.

I've been seeing this woman that does CBT since mid-June. On our first encounter I told her about my symptoms, I told her same thing I just said here and she already diagnosed me with an *undefined* anxiety disorder and *probably* depression, and said I needed a psychiatrist. I was like, ok fine. I started taking sertraline almost immediatly after that, which she was very pleased with.

I haven't had panic attacks since then, but my health obsession is still there and there are some things that make me wonder if She really is a good therapist or not.

- She literally told me "I won't let go of you that easily" on our SECOND encounter. Which of course made me feel kind of uncomfortable.
- She takes calls while we're on session.
- She always promises she'll send me information vía email so I won't end up googling things, always completely forgets about it.
- She insists on talking about my girlfriend (and most of the therapy has focused on that) when I don't think that's my main issue.
- She once forgot our appointment. Apologized.
- She even calls me my girlfriend's name (!) even when we're talking about something completely unrelated to her. Realizes it but for some reason keeps doing it.
- She suggested I should leave my home.
- She suggested I should change my job.
- She suggested I should leave my girlfriend due to complications on our relationship ('love is not always enough' were her exact words)
- She asked me, just like that, if I had been abused as a child.

And finally, last time I saw her She said I was having a "relapse". And that this was completely normal and expected, also that coupled with the anxiety I had some kind of OCD (it seems somewhere in the middle She discarded depression) and I needed to up my dose of sertraline. I cried, told her I didn't want to because having to take the pill makes me even more anxious, that I have doubts and no way of knowing if it's working, if it's making symptoms worse or what (for ****s sake didn't She expect this? I'm obsessed with my health).
She even asked me if I was taking the pills (of course I am!!!) and suggested to up my dose just by myself without consulting with a psychiatrist, because She thought I wouldn't want to go.

Also she literally LAUGHED in my face for having these concerns. And I came out of her office feeling worse than before.

I realize some of you guys have more experience with therapy so I wanted to ask, do you think I should reconsider seeing this woman or just go through with it? Any opinions will be very much appreciated