Yes Liz , Thoughts plans and intent. When I am pulling out pen and paper to write letters that is when I practically jump up and tell Hubby, I need Ip and I need to go right now !

But there was a time that I didnt get that last rational thought and reach out for help.... I did OD and lets just say I got very lucky.

I really do not want to die .. but when my pain is so bad I feel like I can't breathe .. rational thoughts are unreachable.

I am just so frustrated with the entire system.