I did that when I was hearing voices. I would also be looking again because I felt like i didn't check. Recently, it felt like someone was making noise because I'm usually home alone. I paused, made no noise and stood frozen until I made more noise and stopped, feeling like he knows what I'm thinking where he would attack and make noise at the same time as me. The injection was overdue idk if that has anything to do with it.

Usually I don't even lock the door and get high or drunk listening to music full volume, writing, drinking and talking to friends on cam daring to chug a bottle of jack or something like cutting my arm and putting the blood on my face like a warrior.

Good people I was talking to. I remember I took too much DXM and cut my hair on camera and it wasn't even so I shaved my head and wore turban like rags for a few months. I don't remember much. Some kept the cam on to make sure I was ok while I was concentrating on not dying.

It's a lot more messed up I can't believe what I did but it was awesome.