T, I wrote another one of those letters to her, as you advised. Broke down afterward. All the things I'd like to tell her. All the hurt she caused me over all those years. AND IT DOESN'T MATTER ANYMORE. She's on cloud ****ing nine now. She got everything she wanted. She's happy. BECAUSE OF HER I HAVE TO SEE YOU! BECAUSE OF HER I HAVE TO DRINK TO SHUT IT ALL DOWN! I OUGHT TO MAKE HER PAY YOUR ****ING BILL EACH WEEK! WAS IT ALL A LIE? IS ANYTHING I FEEL FOR YOU A LIE? WHY THE **** DO I KEEP ON DAY AFTER DAY???