So I think I might have a mental illness but I'm not sure and I don't know what it would be. All I know is that sometimes I don't think the way others think. Now these things aren't major, they can just be distracting at times. First off, I have this weird thing about everything being balanced. Say if I'm typing on the computer and I haven't used a finger to type in a while, then I have to repeatedly type with it to make it not aggravate me anymore. And if I was to bite one side of my lip, I would half to bite the rest of my lip equally or else it will annoy me. Also, whenever I hear words or read words, my brain just picks up random words subconsciously and I have to spell them in my head in order to continue reading. I can ignore it, but it's hard. It's gotten to be worse lately that I pick up phrases and I have to spell and draw the words in my head. I sometimes even have outlined of the words and fill them in until their perfect. The most annoying thing about it though is that whenever I fill in the words my brain makes another line that connects off of a letter and then I have to fill that in. More lines keep forming and eventually I'm on a rabbit trail in my head that won't stop unless I make it stop which can be hard as well. There are other little things that bother me that are like these, but these are the main problems. I know I sound crazy and I usually do to anyone I tell, but I just need some answers on why this happens because I don't think it's normal.

Thanks,
Macey