I was far too manic to the point of buying lots of alcohol and downing it. I was gone and sick. Now I'm paying for it. My parents got rid of my laptop. I have to save up again for a new one. My mother keeps coming into my room. Calling me selfish, coward etc. I've already tried to take an overdose of one of my tablets and self harmed using a safety pin.I'm such a mess...I just want to die.