i've had several treatments for it but it didnt help. people said "do what you once loved" and i tried, but all my happiness seems to dissapear in the black hole of doom. i get hopeless because this is going on for 4 years now. i dont know what to do.

any tips to beat depression?? im taking medications, and it helps a little bit. but i still dont feel the old me again who enjoys talking to people instead of sucking the life out of them. im doing daily things like making homework, singing or drawing. sometimes i talk to people but as i said: my happiness just seems to dissapear right after it. and i get heavily hyper, and i try to prevent that. or sometimes i have the feeling people know that im so depressed, ofcourse they know because i told them, but i dont want them to think i dont like talking to them in fact i dont because it seems useless: i dont think they get happy of talking to someone depressed either.

i think i have social anxiety too, which makes it harder. but i can deal with that, if it was only social anxiety. i just want to FEEL again, instead of immediately feeling worthless when i did something "wrong" in my eyes.