Mewtojunior

I am sorry that things are not going well for you at the moment. Have you got good medication? Are you in therapy? That can make a huge difference to managing problems. I am sorry that you have not found a good relationship yet. But this may just be a matter of keeping trying till you find the right person.

You can only really afford to pay what is financially possible for you of the family debts always allowing you enough to have a reasonable life. There is no reason why you should feel bad about yourself. You are a very caring person good at most things and not so good at a few like the rest of us. And you have managed to set up your own software company which is a great achievement! I hope and pray you feel much better soon. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis