Well, at the very least maybe take comfort in the fact that none of that at its core has much to do with you. We're a product of the world we live in, and by the time we really take notice, the prospect of recalibrating our experience can be fairly daunting. And it takes time.. existential crises can be an incredible test of stamina.

Anyway, they're only disorders in the sense that they are out of order with social constructs. It's all pretty subjective. Personally, I consider every anomaly of my cognitive differential to be an absolutely normal reaction to abnormal life experience. So what's disordered.. me, or the crazy world? Probably both.. but I think I've given up thinking there's anything wrong or defective about me, or at least that there's anything more wrong with me than anything or anyone else in this world. I mean, really, look at this place.

I've been in the longest existential crisis of my life the last few years.. too many things had happened all at once to rock me to the core and it's required a faith in my own process that defied much of even my own logic.. seems to have required at its base that I further open myself up to who I really am, regardless of how that fits into anyone else's idea of who I am or how they perceive I should be..

Idk, this might not relate in the least to what you are going through, but I wish you solace, and empathize.