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Originally Posted by SarahSweden
Iīve been looking for a new T for many months now, I was terminated. I went to public health care and psychiatry and that has only made things worse. Iīve got the diagnoses depression and anxiety and I also have suicidal thoughts quite frequently.
As the waiting time to see a therapist is long Iīve asked for a councellor to just talk to, not therapy but someone to talk to while I wait to see a therapist.
It took several months before I met with a doctor who conceded to letting me see a councellor and I got an appointment with a psychiatric nurse.
It was the worst appointment Iīve ever had and it made me feel even worse than before. She questioned if I had tried to commit suicide and when I said I havenīt she more or less meant that in that case I hadnīt the right to get to talk to someone.
As I asked for just someone to talk to about how I feel and that itīs very hard for me to wait to see a T, that I feel very mentally ill with depression and anxiety the chat wasnīt supposed to be about diagnosing. Iīve already went through that but the nurse talked about diagnoses anyway and said things like "thereīs something that isnīt right with you" and "itīs a feeling I have".
Earlier on there have been discussions whether I might have traits of aspbergers but no complete evalutation has been done. I felt completely mortified by this - she tells me this like she was talking about a movie or whatever and doesnīt seem to care or know how it feel to be told such things.
A diagnoses, that noone before suspected is now thrown at me with when thereīs noone to talk to or to process all difficult feelings and sadness that comes with such suspicions.
She didnīt even sat in the chair near me but at her desk, at a distance.
I live by myself and has noone to turn to for comfort. How is it possible to even cope with being treated like this?
Is there someone who shares a similar experience?
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I think there is where my reply goes. And my friend, I feel for you here. I really truly do. Here is my input:
I am so sorry you had to deal with an IDIOT therapist. You can perhaps pass it forward by submitting online and ANONYMOUS evaluations (I for example am seeking a dentist I can afford and am looking not only at costs but at how good they are through online doctor evaluation sites -- reputable ones. People who have bad doctor experiences and good ones too should always do this since the internet is often the only way to find a good therapist.
First of all, I did not take this to be a political question about Obamacare and frankly, I won't even go into healthcare, because I took your question to be simply a question about the therapy issue in general. I DO believe there are good therapists out there. I also DO have hope that you can find that therapist. This is a problem with every single person ever who went to seek help and found crap. You are ABSOLUTELY right in feeling utterly unhappy with that particular experience and let me assure you this is NOT okay. To make you feel isolated and not even give you the respect of proper space and to treat you as insignificant and an inhuman THING to be checked off? Revolting. As someone who has been through nursing school I can tell you, sadly, that there are many people doing the difficult job of treating both minds and bodies that should be handling garbage or food instead, because they just don't have that "caring" and empathetic gene. Shrinks might graduate, and pass the boards, but they fail at the empathy test in the real world. I know this because i have probably seen most of them! No I kid, but I know -- and I know many of us know -- that even the moderators on here (and online therapists) and therapists in person are often so awful at the understanding one's feelings and discomfort or what have you, it is simply beyond belief they do that job.
Here is what I also think, despite my anger and frustration at finding a good therapist: there are DEFINITELY good therapists out there. You might have to see a hundred -- but most likely far fewer -- but somewhere, I simply must hope -- there is that person who can help and WANTS truly to help and best of all, is capable. I know that for you and for me. We deserve it.