Sorry for the late reply I was solving others problems.

I was thinking about what you have said and it really could be possible. I mean even in the days when everything starts to work, my family suddenly appears and destroy with their problems the rest of the day for me. When I have to return home or go somewhere else and there is someone of my family there, I prefer to make a long walk before entering and seeing them.

In this moment my best friends are outside the country. I had a great friend that was a psychologist, but died some years ago from cancer. So in this moment I found myself dealing with this all by myself. But I am trying to find someone to talk about it. But it has really hard to find someone. And what really bothers me, is that when they needed my help I had given it to them. But when I am on need of help, they simply don't want to help me.