I have learned it is very important to forgive myself.I need to have compassion for myself and others.I am working with what I know.Now after years of being sick and tired of being sick and tired I am trying to surrender my old way of thinking to something new.Not easy to do.Its like learning a new language.I see progress though and that gives me hope.Deflate the ego build self esteem.Love and be loved with healthy boundaries in place.In time hopefully my subconscious self accepts it.