CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR JOB!!!!!!!!

Your T sounds awesome. The more I read your posts, the more I admire the honest, authentic relationship that the two of you have. I sense a very strong connection there.

I'm so sorry you've been going through such a hard time. But the fact that you can internalize that chair-- that safe feeling in the chair with T nearby-- that is so important. Keep holding onto that. You are very strong.