This is helpful. Last time I knew things were getting bad and everyone was telling me I needed to go. I packed a bag and had it ready. I kept trying to put it off and when I called the crisis team they came over., they really wanted me to go in and I really didn't want to.....they .decided to call the police mediator to get another opinion. He agreed with me but then he said that since I called out for help I could go to a crisis center as long as I promised to stay. The crisis center is a lot more run down and no real groups...but it's open meaning no locked doors. You have to stay for a week. Once they decided I really needed to go it was very helpful that I was already packed since there wasn't much time.

I kind of recommend two small bags. One with clothes ( comfortable, no strings and warm. Shoes with no laces or slippers)and small bottles of shampoo, conditioner, toothbrush and toothpaste. Most hospitals have the toiletries but they're generic and I don't like them. Maybe a book, small amount of money for snacks if that's allowed. Take that one with you.

In the second bag you could put stuff like the crochet stuff, computer and other stuff you are not sure about. Just leave the second one by the door of your apartment and ask a friend or your parents to bring it if it's allowed. Most hospitals don't want you to bring much or expensive things.

It's generally best to go in though a doctor, it goes smoother. This last time I didn't have a pdoc or therapist but the crises team was nice. I think it might have helped that I called in the morning, I get the impression most people call at night...but mornings are the worse for me. After days of no sleep it's hard.

Most of all be easy on your self, going to the hospital doesn't mean your life is over or that you'll end up on disability. Most schools will work with the hospital to arrange leave or an extension or other arrangements. It probably feels like it's all over and it's going to all fall apart but that's the depression and anxiety talking. Do talk to someone honestly about how you feel. It's really not the end.