Sep 19, 2015 at 06:22 PM
When I'm out drinking, I end up drinking a LOT because I enjoy the fact that I stop caring and can let walls down - also because I drink small sips but quickly, and I drink even quicker if I'm nervous.
I burn bridges with friends.... I can't talk about the things that upset me involving them, and instead.... I just cut ties, even though I don't want to. Or if I think I've upset them, I cut back all attempts to contact them because I don't want to upset them further.
My food habits are also a viscious circle, but I attribute that to bipolar.
I do, however, totally neglect any exercise because I can't handle the thought of anyone seeing my red face - it just cripples me and I can't. And then I can't at home because of such low self esteem.
Things like that I guess.
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