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Originally Posted by Texansfan
Being abandoned as a child is an extremely hurtful situtation!! Even if parents are physically present and they abandon you emotionally, the pain is still deep. Getting over abandonment is extremely hard, even if it happened 35 years ago. You are always waiting and wondering when you are going to be abandoned again and by whom. You are distrustful that anyone is actually going to be there for you. As a result, future relationships are difficult and it feels impossible to trust people. Especially when it was a parent that hurt you!!
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This is a constant for me...my mental health is so much better... but this area of my life has not improved much. I try to take care of myself by myself. The times I have had to lean on friend or family is always anxiety ridden. I cannot stand to feel like I am imposing. I have no soft, safe place to fall -even if it is for just a short time.
Right now I am staying with a friend and her husband. In these situations I tried to do nice things for these people or offer to do anything to help while I am under their roof. I'm not a loafer or loser.... and that is exactly what I feel like.. they may find fault with something little..and I cannot get over it. I am in that situation right now.. but after a couple months I am now in a position that I can finally afford to "share" a place with others that are looking to have roommates... and after that I am working to have my own place even if it's the size of a closet.
