Do you find that extra stress causes you to become somewhat more loopy than normal? We just celebrated Thanksgiving here in Canada, and it was very stressful for me to get together with my family. I was at my family home, surrounded by my dreams for the future as a child, and the successes of my family in the present. My life is a total mess, and I don't have the means to change that.

Anyways, I found that being in that environment was so stressful for me that it left me pretty darn loopy. Reality and fantasy get confused. I have "hallucinatory" desires to do weird stuff....like to stay up for days on end without sleep, to stop eating, to sit out in the rain with my arm bleeding. I have an actual physical sensation of being high....I feel loopy both physically and mentally. My thought-process is definately out of whack. And even knowing that to be so, I still want to go along with these weird sensations and thoughts. I'm definately not very safe right now.

Have you had this happen? How long does it last? What are some of the ways you've helped yourself get grounded again? Because I'm about to comitt a mass murder or paint polka dots on my walls or start talking to the refrigerator!!

I see my therapist on Friday morning. I hope I'm more stable by that time. Help!

Sandy