I'm not feeling super well right now. I feel like a crazy person... Like, I can actually see that I'm paranoid, anxious, and irrational but I don't see a fix right now. The image I have in my mind is of trying to tread water in a storm while a boatload of people watches me and doesn't thrown me a rope or life preserver.

PS Posting here isn't helping a lot; it's just fueling the anxiety (like dancinglady said a while ago, it sucks to post and have people ignore it for hours. In my rational mind I get it but right now it's just like...ehhh...people don't reply to my texts or emails or phone calls or even on PC. Do I in fact even exist??)