We welcome to PC...I weaned off once and had a similiar spiral...

I am sure there are people who can do it with out meds...I'm not one of them...Lamictal has been very good to me I spent the last 2 months titrating up and the last week or so there is some stability.

Suggestion I have is to talk with your doc...find the lowest possible dosages that help squash your symptons or at least make them manageable...that probably would be a first step...