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Originally Posted by amandalouise
no one ever told me I have a one track mind. quite the opposite. they were always coming to me to figure things out because I had the ability to think on many different levels. they didnt know I was DID and that if there was something I couldnt figure out I would end up dissociating and another who was capable of doing that would figure it out. for a while there before I told anyone I had DID everyone thought i was just a whiz at multi tasking and able to think out many different elements, aspects of a problem at the same time like someone with a photographic memory could....
I remember this one time in school I got in trouble because I was doing the work faster than others and my teacher thought I was cheating, she didnt know that I had DID so i was to think out the answers faster than other single minded people could.
i always had more than one objective to my playing...I may have been playing dolls but at the same time I had my blocks forming towers and my crayons out drawing and doing my homework, and in high school it was nothing to find me doing my homework, watching tv while cooking dinner while teaching a younger sibling how to ride a bike and another how to do their homework and plan out a best friends birthday party...
even now my wife sometimes gets frustrated because I usually have so many different things going at the same time and she looks at me and says I thought integrated meant less chaos, and I laugh and say yes less chaos but still have the same abilities its just all in one now. I may not dissociate into alters now but I still retain the ability to multi task, multi think, multi do...
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That's nice dear, I can only wish....instances were like people would tell me that I was at a stop light driving and they were blowing their horn and that I was like in a trance state and unawares of my surroundings...they got a kick out of it...of course I have no idea, but..
Or when they say I get focused on a job...thats all I do...or an approach to a problem...it's hard to explain.
I figure it to the others doing their thing, then everyone looks at us peculiar.
Me too on the school thing...I was in all honors...a brainiac, scientist, musician, geometry, biology, physics., French ...I was into everything. I did it all...but that's school. In adult life things are different. I can't work and talk at the same time. It's either one or the other...the worker works or the talker talks...to do more than one thing required switching minute by minute...second by second to appear normal.
I'm not integrated so it's like each does their job....which leaves a deficit in other areas.
That's more what I meant. Even today..whoever does whatever...there's no crossover. It's awful...nothing like having a blank stare when surprises happen. I guess we're getting slower.
