Started a new job last week. Doing good so far but having some trouble with the thought of having to leave the house. I push through it and make sure I leave for work early so I don't have too much time in the morning to dwell. I can use the money and working has kind of given us structure again. For some of us that is good but I think for others is sort of stifles them. We keep thinking we need to move. I am not certain if it is to help my son or run away from stress related to working and paying bills. I just need to slow down and take it a day at a time. I also have been thinking that maybe we won't be DID for a while. Like just going back to how we were before we knew. I don't know if that is possible or even a good idea. I am a little uneasy working on my stuff without a t for support. But finding a t who works with DID is not easy. I have thought about just going to a t and not telling them about the diagnosis but than what would we talk about. And who would go to session. Than I start to over think everything and I end up avoiding and doing nothing. I think I will go to bed now.