InRealLife45

I am sorry that you are having these suicidal thoughts. The important thing is that they are just thoughts and you are in charge of what you do so they cannot make you do anything. How about medication would having that looked at or strengthened be helpful? The Dr. would be able to advise about that.

How about therapy? A good therapist can give you good skills for dealing with depression. CBT is very good as is acceptance and commitment therapy, which I use. It is based on research, which shows that, trying to get rid of thoughts only makes them worse, and come back more. It says that we should accept them say to ourselves, we are experiencing them and just watch them as they go out of our minds. And we keep doing that till they stop. which they always do, while at the same time getting on with the business of the day. Keeping your mind busy doing things, especially enjoyable ones will distract from these thoughts.

There is Nami the organization for the mentally ill and you can Google them contact them to find out what courses they have in your area. They do run peer to peer support groups which would give you new friends. And fellow sufferers make the best ones and would care about you. I hope and pray all of this will get better for you soon. Have a really great day. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis