A very warm welcome to PC....
It sounds like you have been having a very tough time... I am so sorry.. I know how hard and scary it can be..

Do you have a Therapist? The right therapist is what turned it around for me.. I had have my ED, I think for 6 years..
I got a new therapist around Dec last year and that is what has worked for me.. and the support I receive here at PC.

I've never been to the hospital for my ED, which has been at times restriction, bulimea and binge without purge..

I have had to be re-hydraded and had to visit my doctor weekly. And I've also had to go twice a week to a nutritionist... or they threatened I/P psych...

But really, I think just realizing that I wanted to change.. helped alot..that feeling "icky" just from the food.. wasn't worth it..

Stick around PC... you will find so many kind, wonderful supportive people..