Hey all,

Im really struggling with the ups and downs of some abandonment issues which have been triggered at the moment, its very much like PTSD.... Strong fear and sadness, grief and a deep feeling of aloneness and despair... not great!!!!

Its up and down, some days are ok some are a struggle.... My dilema is the holiday I have booked for Wednesday, im due to fly to Portugal for 2 weeks with friends but instead of looking forward to it im dreading it, holidays always get me a bit anxious even when I feel great so im freaking out a bit... Being with friends doing fun stuff could actually be just what I need, maybe it will really help with these feelings of isolation and fear, being with people I have care about. But also the idea of being away from home and my family at this time scares me..... what if I have a total melt down?!!! Any advise would be great.... I usually chill out when I get to places.